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畢業時，女孩子對男孩子說：我要去北京，北京的中關村有中國矽谷之稱，那裡機遇多，以後容易發達。

男孩子說：那我就回四川老家，那裡是天府之國，美女多，以後你發達了不要我，我容易再找。

女孩子的小拳頭在男孩子厚實的胸前輕敲，嘟起了小嘴兒，說你就知道想美女，哼，就算以後我不要你了，你也只能想著我愛著我，不許你找別的女孩子。

男孩子握住女孩子的手，深情的在她的額頭印上一吻，說，傻丫頭，咱們的父母都在四川呢，你去北京了，我這個好女婿，當然得回去照顧岳父岳母啦。

女孩子的星目裡閃著淚花，投進男孩子的懷裡，再也不起來。


兩人異地相隔但是情愫不減，濃濃的相思當然只能靠無線電波來傳遞，發短信，打電話，兩個人向祖國通訊事業的營業額盡心盡力的貢獻著。


一天，女孩子在網上讀到一個故事，說的也是一對情侶的故事，每次打電話，那個男孩子都會等女孩子先掛電話，當女孩子經歷了世事滄桑之後，她才發現，原來這個世上最愛自己的男人，就是那個每次打電話都等自己先掛的男孩子。

女孩子記住了這個讓她唏噓流淚的故事，那天晚上打完電話，她對男孩子說：你先掛電話。

男孩子一愣，說，傻丫頭，打電話還分什麼先後啊。

女孩子撒嬌，說，不嘛不嘛，就得你先掛電話，不聽我以後不理你了，讓你找不到老婆。

男孩子停了幾秒鐘，輕笑了下，說知道了傻丫頭，為了以後我不打光棍兒，我就先掛了哦，就知道浪費電話費。

女孩子聽見男孩子掛斷電話後傳來的第一聲線路忙音，她開懷的一笑，在心裡對男孩子說：親愛的，我愛你，比你愛我的還要愛。

從那以後，兩個人打電話，每逢說到再見，她便握住手機靜靜的聽，等男孩子先掛。而男孩子總會笑著親暱的叫她一聲傻丫頭，便掛斷了電話。

時間久了，女孩子漸漸的感到一絲淡淡的委屈：你知道嗎你，哼，每次我都等你先掛電話，我這麼默默的愛你，你卻一點也不知道。她想讓男孩子也看看那篇文章，讓他知道自己多麼愛他，哪天他也能等自己先掛一次電話，自己能切切實實的感受下什麼叫被愛，該多好啊。

女孩子忍住了，她的幸福中既有甜蜜又有酸澀，她想：能這麼一輩子以一個獨特的方式深切的愛一個男人，也是一種幸福吧。

跟所有的北漂一樣，女孩子的日子過的並不舒適，但是能住在筒子樓裡，相比那些住地下室的北漂們，女孩子的生活條件算不錯的了。初時的雄心壯誌已經被磨的只剩下一個小小的尾巴，但是好強的女孩子並沒有向男孩子抱怨過什麼，她只是更習慣於對男孩子說那句我愛你。

筒子樓所在的那個社區治安不太好，甚至還有一個專偷女性內衣的變態狂。以前有同租的女孩兒陪伴，女孩子並沒有感覺怎樣，但是那個女孩兒因為家裡有事告假回家了，留下女孩子一個人住在兩室一廳一廚一衛的房子裡，她很自然的感覺到孤單害怕。

那夜，女孩子在睡夢中被一陣窸窸窣窣的聲音驚醒，仔細的聽了下，是房門口傳來的聲音。她抓緊被角，渾身抖作一團，大氣不敢出，無助的淚水無聲的從眼中湧出來。

突然，她的手碰到枕下的手機，彷彿抓住了救命稻草，立刻給男孩子發了一條短信：親愛的，我怕。

其實男朋友遠在四川，就算一個信息能起什麼作用呢？更何況大半夜的，男孩子可能早關機睡覺了。女孩子忘記了要先報警，在這個最害怕的時刻，她只想起了男孩子。

令女孩子驚喜的是，信息發出後幾秒鐘，男孩子的電話打進來了。她輕輕的接通，聽見裡面傳來男孩子關切的聲音：傻丫頭，是不是想我了？

女孩子盡量壓低自己的聲音，向男孩子說現在她一個人住在房子裡，門外可能有賊，她好害怕。

男孩子安慰女孩子別怕，他想了想，對女孩子說：把你的手機外放喇叭打開，把聲音開到最大，你慢慢去門口，別怕，親愛的，相信我，別怕。

女孩子冰雪聰明，男孩子一說，她就想到了男孩子的意圖：男孩子大聲喊話，讓外面的人知道，屋裡有男人，偷東西或者打別的主意的人，識相的就快走。

女孩子戰戰兢兢的梛到門口，把手機的外放喇叭打開，聲音開到最大後，她輕輕的對話筒說：好了，我在門口了，外放小喇叭也打開了。

這時候女孩子確認外面有人，而且不是一個，可以聽見他們微微的對話聲。
正當女孩子的身體抖的將要站立不住時，手機裡突然大喊一聲：***，誰在外面搞我的門啊？屋裡的哥兒幾個都起來，有客人來了。

男孩子的聲音高亢而粗獷，在寂靜的黑夜了把女孩子嚇了一大跳。不過門外的人可能被嚇得跳的更高，女孩子只聽見一陣撲通撲通的腳步聲由近而遠，看樣子是被嚇走了。

女孩子舒出一口氣，腿一軟，攤在地上。

男孩子等了一會兒，輕輕的問：外面的人走了嗎寶貝？

女孩子終於哭出來，對著手機說，親愛的，我想你。

女孩子驚魂未定，男孩子便一直安撫女孩子，那一夜，兩個人捧著電話說到天明，女孩子說快掛斷吧，打了這麼久長途，得花多少錢啊。

男孩子笑著說真是個傻丫頭，女孩子說就傻，傻才會看上你啊，掛了吧親愛的，今天上班小心睡著被老闆K哦。

掛斷電話後，女孩子心裡一團甜蜜，她享受男孩子給她的安全感，不過美中不足的是，男孩子似乎已經形成先掛電話的慣例了，這次也不例外，女孩子心想：他雖然很好，但是到底不像那個故事中的男孩子愛女孩子那樣深的愛我，他都沒有讓我先掛過電話。

天開始熱了，女孩子的很多單衣上面都沒有口袋，所以很多時候她都忘記帶手機，比如下班吃飯時手機忘在辦公桌上，比如跟室友出去玩時手機忘在租房裡，每次她回來都會收到男孩子的未接電話和信息，也只有這些時候，她才會感覺公平點：哼，每次都先掛我電話，不能及時接你電話，就算是小小的懲罰吧，不許委屈啊，笨豬。

五月十二號，普通的不能再普通的一天，女孩子在那個小公司裡兢兢業業的做著自己的事，為自己的那點小小的夢想不懈的拼搏著。

快下班時，辦公室里傳起來一個消息：發生了大地震，四川汶川是震中，據說震級跟唐山大地震差不多。


女孩子心裡一驚，下意識的向口袋裡掏手機，忘記帶！


她立刻拿起辦公室裡的座機給男孩子打電話，但是撥過去信號就斷，再撥家裡的座機號碼，還是不通，看來四川的通訊設施也被地震破壞殆盡了。

一種不祥的預感湧上心頭，心急如焚的女孩子再等不及下班，從寫字樓裡衝下來，招了一輛出租車就向自己租住的筒子樓趕去。

打開手機，竟然有五十多條未接電話，全部是男孩子打來的，她一翻，還有一條未讀短信：


寶貝，親愛的，傻丫頭，用盡我今生所有的愛叫你，我愛你，比你愛我還要愛。

自從那次你堅持讓我先掛電話，我就知道，你肯定也看過了那個故事，可是，親愛的，我想告訴你，我愛你，比你愛我還要愛。

其實我也看過那篇故事，很早就看過，那是一個美麗的故事，因為有所憾而美，但是那不屬於我們，我不要那種美，那種缺憾的美，我不要！刻骨銘心必將伴隨著撕心裂肺，我寧願兩個人平平安安的過一輩子，也不要那種刻骨銘心，我只想伴你過一生，攜子之手，與子偕老。

我不要那種淒慘的美，我只要實實在在的幸福。我從來不敢忘記帶手機，我怕哪天你會想我，如果我沒帶手機，我怕你也會同我一樣沮喪，很多時候，即使是上廁所，我也要把手機揣兜里；我晚上從來不關機，每晚睡前我都更換一次電池，再把鈴聲調大，我怕你哪個夜裡會害怕想跟我說話，如果我關機，你在異鄉會更加孤獨。

你每次都讓我先掛電話，我知道那是因為你愛我，我很開心，想起來總是眼裡潮潮的；我的電話從來不關機，你卻不知道，那是因為我更愛你，別怪我沒告訴過你，我的寶貝，我是想等到咱們都老成妖怪時再說。

傻丫頭，看樣子我是沒有那個陪伴你一生的福氣了，我背上的那塊預製板，已經壓了我兩個多小時，我的整個胸部背部都撕裂般的疼痛，我還能聞見自己流出血的腥味兒，寶貝，我可能無法再陪你繼續走下去了。

親愛的，我想听聽你的聲音，我一遍遍的打你的手機，你為什麼不接啊？親愛的，你聽見我在呼喚你嗎？親愛的，這裡好黑，我好冷，我想讓你抱著我。
親愛的，我的親愛，我的寶貝，我愛你，我此刻是如此怯懦如此怕死，因為那意味著我再不能吻你疼你。我更擔心的是你會因為我而傷心欲絕，別那樣，親愛的，我走了，你在北京再找一個人照顧你，那裡成功人士多，機遇多。你是天堂裡最聖潔的天使，沒有人在你身邊保護，我怕你會受到傷害。

答應我，親愛的，如果還有一個男人像我這樣愛你，千萬別不接他的電話，我知道他那時會有多痛。
我不能呼吸了，寶貝，再見了，來世，我一定要做你老公！

寶貝，親愛的，傻丫頭，再次用盡我今生所有的愛叫你，我愛你，比你愛我還要愛。

女孩子的淚水似江水決堤，哭到來不及呼吸，她仰頭向天，緊閉著雙眼發出撕心裂肺的呼喊：
親愛的，下輩子我還做你的老婆，我再也不會關機了...

Again...

It's been few days since the incident.. I never think that it took me so long to calm down myself.. Forgive and forget is a hard thing to decide. I never think that I will need to face this kind of decision. Some people may think it is easy to forget and forgive. For me, it's easy to forgive than forget. As for forgive, I just need to say,' I'm sorry for what had happened.' As for forget, erm...., it's hard. It's hard for me to forget people's bad. When it happened you will remember for a long time.

After posting the last blog that I wrote before the CNY, she pm me on FB. Explaining what she feel and thoughts. When I read it during the CNY, 2nd day of CNY, I was like 'Oh, it's my fault.' I have make this kind of mess happen. I was like sad when I received the message during CNY and she's not only pm me also pm 2 other friends. That's make me fee bad for them as they are still enjoying the festive and holidays. I feel guilty on that.

After that, I just pm her back to tell her about my feelings. As I want to totally be clear to her. When I read the reply, again, is 'Oh, it's my fault again.' I never feel like this before. Straightaway I leave the conversation and delete the message. I kept telling myself to cool down and forget about it. I forgive her.

However, when recall back on what had happen today, I think to forget about it is really hard. When things keep on repeat and repeat you will also be mad and angry. I thought today everything will be go back to normal, at least what I have hope for. But, imagination is different from reality. Maybe I really need to learn how to forget. Few more days need to get back to office. Deadline coming soon.. Busy and stress day will be arrive..

Go.. Go.. Go... I will not be beat up by this... I will survive...

Thought For Days

Everything I See Is Precious
Let me learn to keep myself in a positive frame of mind and look for the beauty or benefit in everything that happens.

Becoming Great
The elevated aim of doing more and speaking less will make you great.

The Power of Truth
The power of Truth is such that you need never be concerned about proving it. You need only be concerned with being it and living it. Truth is always revealed, at the right moment, at the right place.

Depth of Humility
Humility means to understand the self and through that to understand others as well. Humility is the attitude where a person is not attached to his or her opinion and feelings. Humility is the most natural expression of truth. It helps in better understanding of truth. Humility is the basis for maintaining self-respect. Humility does not mean bowing down and being subservient to others. Humility allows you to see benefit in everything. Developing humility brings a lot of comfort and ease into your life

True Wealth
Even more valuable than physical wealth is the wealth of spiritual love.

Take A Moment
Take a moment whenever you remember just to stop. Be still and silent. Sense the quietness of that moment and visualise yourself stepping into an ocean of calm. Submerge your whole being in the quiet waters. As the waves of that calm ebb and flow, begin to unburden yourself. Slip into that place of no thinking and become completely still. Now, in that stillness, become aware of your 'original' self. This is the real, true you. Let it appear quietly but brilliantly. After some moments, emerge from the still waters and try to retain an awareness of the true you as you go back to your everyday affairs.

Incense Stick
Some people say that it is very difficult to be positive in this highly negative world. But just as an incense stick spreads fragrance everywhere and dispels bad odour, the power of constantly pure and positive thoughts can transform the negative attitudes and atmosphere of any person or place.

Talk Lovingly To Yourself
Learning to talk properly to the self is a spiritual endeavour. When you make a mistake, do you talk lovingly to yourself in your mind, or do you tell yourself off? One habit recognises your divinity; the other subtly shapes a nature of sorrow.

Determination
Determination is an unbroken line, a backbone. Without determination life becomes scattered. Determination makes you sit up straight and love everything.

Harmony
Love dissolves hate. Kindness melts cruelty. Compassion calms passion. Co-operation evokes love and when we bow, others bend. This creates harmony.

Here Is An Angel
How can we serve others around us? By making our lives inspirational and interacting with tact and wisdom. We should be so cheerful, and our lives such examples, that they say 'Here is an angel.'

Positive Attitude
See and hear every person and every situation with a positive attitude. By thinking that everything is good, everything becomes good. Make the attitude of your mind good and powerful and even something bad will become good.

Just Having Fun
Work without happiness is like a burden that you have to endure, but when you are internally happy it becomes a game, and you're just having fun.

Power To Tolerate
You have the power to tolerate anyone and any situation. But tolerance is not just suffering in silence. It means going beyond any personal discomfort you may feel, and giving a gift to whom ever you would tolerate. Give your time, attention, understanding, compassion, care - all are gifts, which paradoxically, you also receive in the process of giving. And, as you do, you will experience your own self esteem and inner strength grow. In this way you can turn tolerance into strength.

Smile And Say "Hello".
In life you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say "hello".

Trust yourself
You must begin to trust yourself. If you do not then you will forever be looking to others to prove your own merit to you and you will never be satisfied. You will always be asking others what to do, and at the same time resenting those from whom you seek such aid.

Busy People
We live in the age of ‘busy’. Busy people not only do a lot, they think a lot. Being lost in thought, is not only tiring and a brilliant way of waste energy, it’s as if we have forgotten the very ground of our being which is still and silent. Learn to meditate and turn the eye of your attention and awareness within, let your mind be quiet and allow your being to be still. You will realize outer space is but a reflection of inner space. Both are vast and infinitely spacious.

Walk Quickly
Walk quickly today, not because you are in a hurry, but because you value the exercise for legs and heart. As you walk, allow your thoughts to visit you, but not stay. Let them come to pass, and you will be surprised how quickly they become positive, and filled with creative ideas. And paradoxically, if you stay internally aware, you may notice that the quicker you walk, the more your thinking slows down and deepens. Walking briskly and positive thinking - that's the simplest way to take care of body and mind. And life was meant to be simple...wasn't it?

True Peace
True peace can be experienced only when we stop giving and taking sorrow. In order not to give sorrow we need a clear heart that has no ill feelings and for not taking sorrow we need a big heart that can tolerate and help other souls to get over their weaknesses.

Determination and Patience
Determination is the strength that will enable you to pass the barrier of useless thoughts in order to create positive thoughts and to be successful in whatever you wish. It comes from within and its partner is patience. Patience teaches you not to push but rather to wait and appreciate the game of life instead, knowing that nothing remains the same, and everything will change at some point.

Happiness Is Your Property
No matter what adverse situations come in front of you, no matter how many obstacles come in front of you, your happiness should not disappear. An obstacle that comes will also go away. That obstacle comes and goes away but what belongs to you should not go. So, happiness is your property. Whenever an obstacle comes, just think that it has come to go away. When a guest comes to your home, it isn't that he has come as a guest and will go away having taken everything from your home. So an obstacle has come and it will go away but it should not take away your happiness. Happiness should always remain with you.

Angel Face
An angel's face is still because there are no lies inside. Truth makes it a straight, simple face whose beauty lies not in its form but in the feeling it gives you.

Happy New Year
Give birth to new possibilities through your ability to reach into the future and let go of the past.

Celebration
Everyday is a celebration because instead of waiting for happy endings, we open our eyes to the wonder of life, to see the humour and magic in each moment. Delighted in the way things turn out, amazed at the beauty of it all.

Transform Obstacles
Is life an obstacle course? Sometimes it may feel like it. If you join the military you will be sent around an obstacle course of increasing degrees of difficulty. Why? To increase your strength and stamina and expand your creative capacity under strain. So it is on the course called 'life' - you can choose to perceive people, situations or events as obstacles, or you can choose to use these things to strengthen and expand your capacity to be creative and to find ways round, under, over. The choice lies in your perception. Obstacles are never ever 'out there', they are always in our own minds.

Creating Thoughts Of Benefit
Acts of virtue emerge from deep within, from an inner sanctuary of silence from which inspiration flows. Every action has its seed in a thought and every thought is a creation of the thinker, the soul. I choose what thoughts I want to create and as is my thinking so are my actions and also my experience in life. Going within, I touch the stillness and pure love that lie at the core of my being and every thought that I create is of benefit to myself and of benefit to humanity

Like An Angel
Acceptance gives me the experience of being like an angel: never judging, never criticising and never worrying.

Working on Rebuilding Relationships
It’s easy to speak negatively when we do not like something about someone. We often react without thinking and become angry. Our words and behaviour become negative or insulting. This further widens the gap damaging the relationship. When someone does something undesirable. I first need to understand the behaviour. Every person has a reason to behave the way he or she does even if I cannot understand it at the time. The more I react to the other person and the bad behaviour, the greater the distance between us. To mend the relationship I need to remind myself of the other person’s good qualities

Trustee Consciousness
We all have a relationship with everything. Obviously the relationship we have with the people and objects in our immediate vicinity is more intimate than the rest of the world. For most of us the most common relationship is possession. In our minds we think we own and possess things like cars and houses and carpets and golf clubs etc. This thinking easily spreads into jobs and tasks and positions and perhaps even other people. "I want you", and "You are mine alone", is the essence of many romantic film scripts and song lyrics. What we forget is that this relationship is wrong. It is not possible to possess anything. Care for..yes. Use...yes. But possess...no. You can't take it with you when you go, so we say! And yet it's the idea of possession which lies at the heart of all fear, war and conflict. Can you see it? Fear of loss, fear of not acquiring what we have already decided is ours in our minds. So what is a better relationship we can choose which takes all the fear away. Be a trustee. Everything comes to us in trust, for us to use and then to set it free. The consciousness of trustee sets us free of the tension of grasping and guarding. To see ourselves as trustees of everything that we receive, including our bodies, encourages our innate capacity to 'care for with dignity'. It is a much more relaxing way of relating to the things which we are privileged to receive in life.

Learn Meditation
Why has meditation been the core practice of all wisdom paths for over two thousand years? Because it is the most effective method to access your innate wisdom, rediscover inner peace and enhance your creative ability. Meditation restores well being, and once your being is well again, all that you do will be successful and fulfilling. But maybe you think you are OK as you are. Perhaps you feel your being is well. But is it? Do you feel tense, worried, hopeless, mentally tired, emotionally upset...ever? Then your being is not well. Your body may be OK but you, the being, is unwell. Medication is for the body, and meditation is for the soul, that's you, and for your mind. Learning how to meditate is one of the greatest gifts you can give to yourself. Practising meditation says you care about yourself. Being in meditation can touch the minds and hearts of others a thousand miles away. It actually says that you care about others too. But first...your self.

Happiness
You are a fortunate soul who realizes that the path to happiness cannot be walked in someone else's shoes. Your happiness fits you alone - perfectly.

Courage
Do not become discouraged in the face of adversity. Understand that the bigger the heart, the bigger the obstacles it is asked to accommodate.

Flexibility
With humility and love, flexibility becomes natural. When I come across someone who is not being co-operative I need to become humble and try to understand what the other person is communicating, If not through words at least through actions. When I am able to listen with love and understanding, I will not be rigid anymore but will be able to adapt to communicate and co-operate with others.

Banish Worry
Worry is otherwise known as 'fantasised catastrophising' where we create an image of the future and use it to frighten ourselves! Be aware that you are doing it, then stop doing it, otherwise the image will become a self fulfilling prophesy. Imagine only the brightest future, and so it will be. Besides there is nothing to worry about... unless you are under the illusion that your well-being and security are dependent on material things. If they are, then you will have many ways in which you can create worry. Possible loss, damage, separation, uncertainty are but a few. Look, you're killing yourself with worry, all because of the misuse of your imagination. Don't do it.

Caring Heart
I express my care and concern by responding to situations with a cool head and to people with a warm heart. If I remain aware that as fellow human beings we are all part of one family, and that even the smallest of gestures can make a difference in people's lives, I am always blessed with a caring heart. It takes so little to show that I care yet it can mean so much.

True Happiness
There is no nourishment like happiness - it's an elixir. There is no sickness like sorrow - it's a poison. The experience of true happiness cures the sickness of sorrow. A cheerful face goes a long way towards making everything better!

#?**&!!!!!

Today, I really like someone take a sharp needle kept on poking my heart. FB is a place for someone to say out their thoughts and comments. I never think that I will be on the comments. This afternoon when I saw it I was like is this me... Is this me who that's she is saying about.

Pressure keeps on increase when I continue stay in the office. Maybe what other says is correct, workplace is not really a good place when there are so much of people especially everyone comes from different background. Conflicts arise when opinions crashed with each other.

In my opinion, I maybe think that I was not wrong. But, I really is not wrong. Maybe I'm not satisfied with the way of her of doing her works. Keep on delaying.. Assigning her assignments to others. When I think of that I was really pissed off. Dissatisfaction.. I shouldn't be complain in front of colleagues and manager. I should have keep to myself and pretend it never happen. Why she never think why I act like this. What make me change the way I treat her. Is this my fault? Why? Why? Why?

But most importantly I never think that she say she will talk to the manager (another one). What will she be talking to the manager. The bads or just her work. I will never know. The thoughts of leaving has kept on appear on my minds. 60% - 40%; 50% - 50%; 80% - 20%..

Haii... Chinese New Year is coming soon.. One of the No's in CNY is no arguing or fighting. Hard to avoid.. I never think that it will turn up like this. Is this a sign for me?? Fade up..

Now, what I can do is to try to forget about that... Stay far far away from her...

"BAD THURSDAY & FRIDAY~ VERY VERY ANGRY AR... *ARGH* WTF... !@#$% pissed me off qin qin... i jez hope u can SHUT YOUR MOUTH AND STAY FAR FAR AWAY FROM ME!!! DON SHOW ME YOUR CHARCOAL FACE... really BULLSHYT!!!! !@#$%^"

".. but SOMEONE... i wonder how many bucket of ICE i need now.. really PISSED OFF ler.. I feel like tell them off... REALLY PEK CEK ar.... BULLSHYT~ !@@##@$#@%#$%"

I show her charcoal face.. Why she never think that she is the one who also show me her charcoal face. I deal with it for so long. She just deal once. 1 - 1++.. I really disappointed on her. She shouldn't post it on FB.. She shouldn't be like that.. Haii....

Goodbye 2011 Hello 2012

Still got less than 1 hour, we all will be saying goodbye to 2011 and say hello to 2012. Wao... 2012.. My mind keeps on flashing back all the things happened in 2011 and time passed so fast.. I never think that later strike 12.00 a.m it will be 01.01.2012. Many things happened during this year. Happiness and sadness. Satisfaction and disappointment. All kinds of feeling mixed up in this year. Especially my jobs. I never think that I have faced with the environment in the office. Stress especially. People come and go... Maybe is my time also.

New plan need to be decide and plan. New year new plan.. Old things just let it go and accept the new things. Plans.. I need plans not only a plan...

Writing this post is to have a closure for 2011. End of the story for 2011.. I'm prepared to welcome 2012.. WELCOME.... WELCOME..

So, I'm here to wish all of you here,

HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HAVE A BLESSING YEAR IN 2012

A Thousand Years by Christina Perri

"A Thousand Years"

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Official video from youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OHkvan-NFnM&ob=av2e

Thought For Days

Divine Help
Many times people report the feeling of divine help and strength when they come close to breaking point. Actually divine help is always there, but I am usually so busy doing things in my own little way that I only look for it when I face absolute defeat. The tranquil nature of enlightened souls comes from their ability to take God's help constantly. A state of true surrender will lead to the feeling of victory in everything I do.

Bring Light
There is some darkness in most human minds today, so there is a darkness component in most scenes and situations. Why else is there so much unhappiness and sorrow in the world? So how much value can be given to someone who is able to bring light and lightness to a place or a moment, where others have brought their dark? Like a crown of sparkling jewels, their presence and their words are priceless. It may only be a gentle smile of comfort, an attitude of genuine interest, some words which diffuse an awkward moment. Those who stay light in spirit while others weave their dark are both illuminated and illuminators. Watch out for such a moment today where you may illuminate. Make that moment momentous!

Create Vision
Never believe anyone who says we cannot change. Vision is one of the secrets of personal transformation. We are all artists, our mind is the arena of creation and vision is what we are constantly creating. What is your vision of yourself today – patient, relaxed, positive or tense, tight and negative? What do you prefer? So be creative – what does patience look like, feel like, what are you doing that is different when you are patient and you are expressing your power to …wait? Always start with vision not action. See it and you will be it. Be it and you will do it. We don’t ‘get a life’ as some would cynically tell us – we create our life.

Think No Evil.
"See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil."
Do not even think evil, because first you think of something, then you speak of it, then you see it.

Simplicity and Royalty
There's great beauty in simplicity. It's not plainness, however it is plain in the sense that words and actions are enacted with great royalty, full awareness and with so much significance. Simplicity takes us away from artificialities, it simply accepts and in that acceptance shows us grace and humility in every circumstance.

Riches
The greatest good we can do for others is not to share our riches with them, but to reveal to them their own.

Your Own Truth
To follow someone else's truth is a trap. The best strategy is to know your own truth, face it and live by it. Others may inspire, guide, give you directions, but ultimately you have to cut your own way through the jungle. You could always be asking others where North is, and they will tell you. Someone will say North is this way and someone else that North is that other way - and both would have been sincere. But you alone have to find your true North.

Hard To Forgive
Why is it hard to forgive others? Usually because we believe that they are 90% to blame for the problem, that I am not as bad as they are. So I start to carry the load of other people's actions. If my ego is too hurt, I will have the sense of correction, of justice: 'I know I am right', 'That is not fair'. But if I start to forgive from the heart, sincerely, I remain humble and this forgiveness will bring me closer to others. Then I do not carry regrets or anger, I just let go and remain light.

Patience
Patience is a reflection of the peaceful mind. My peaceful mind is able to cope with all situations without becoming disturbed and agitated. It calmly accepts the resolution of circumstances and, with this patience acquires the power to deal with all situations.

The Value of Enthusiasm
To be free from carelessness is to be constantly enthusiastic.
Carelessness has a tendency to spread from one person to another. When I see someone working carelessly, I need to remain strong within myself and pay close attention to my work. This will help me to move ahead with enthusiasm.

The Spiritual Aspect Of Healthcare
Silence, happiness, love and blessings are important aspects. Happiness leads to good health. It is only you who can give this medicine to yourself. Some bring illness to themselves through anger, greed, unfullfilled desires, expectations, suppression of feelings and relationships not based on true love. Look in your heart, you will know where your illness comes from. There are three ingredients for a long and healthy life: live with attention but without worry; use time in a worthwhile way; keep your thoughts pure, positive and filled with strength.

Self Respect
To transform the ordinary into something special is to be truly fortunate.
When I respect myself and acknowledge the strengths and talents that make me unique, I connect with my inner self. I realise I have power within to make everything I do, even the most ordinary act - special. Then I become truly fortunate.

Complete Everything
A task left undone remains undone in two places - at the actual location of the task, and inside your head. Incomplete tasks in your head consume the energy of your attention as they gnaw at your conscience. They syphon off a little more of your personal power every time you delay. No need to be a perfectionist, that's debilitating in an imperfect world, but it's good to be a 'completionist'. If you start it, finish it...or forget it. Do it - or dump it!

The Rejuvenating Power Of Silence
Silence has to be love-filled. Love actually inspires and moves all things towards their original freedom and happiness.

The Secret Of Good Health
The secret of good health is good nourishment and exercise. We need daily nourishing food and exercise to maintain a healthy body and it takes care and attentiom to fulfil this responsibility. Making the effort underlines our value and importance as a human being. However, the human spirit needs the same attention in the form of the thoughts we have and how the mind puts them to use. Feeding both body and mind with nourishing food gives a powerful and consistent message to respect and co-operate with one another. This is holistic good health.

Be Here Now
Treasure every moment that you have. And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time. Remember that time waits for no one. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow a mystery. Today is a gift... That's why it's called the present.

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Staying Focused
The one who keeps their destination in focus will be successful.
As we travel toward our destination, it’s easy to get distracted. We sometimes become so busy thinking about little things that affect our lives that we lose focus and stop moving forward.
First I need to clarify my goal, then think about how I’m going to work toward it. When situations arise to distract me I need to remind myself that they are only sideshows; they are not important. Instead, to find success, I need to keep my energies focused on my destination.

Abundance
Abundance is to see that there are endless possibilities before us. And at the same time, still see an incredibly rich existence right where we are. It is a feeling of gratitude for everything and everyone we have in our life.

The Power to Adjust
Often when we have to adjust to a person or a situation, we experience many negative thoughts. We find it difficult and tend to feel we are making this adjustment only for the other person's benefit.
To adjust means to understand that nothing can be done to change a situation - it is more sensible to accept it. I adjust not because it will benefit others, but because I will benefit in the long run. This is like crossing a physical obstacle; I cannot remove it so I have to find a way around it if I am to progress.

The Virtue of Sweetness
Just as eating and serving something sweet makes your taste buds feel sweetness, and for a while after, you remain happy, become sweet-natured yourself so that words filled with sweetness are constantly spoken. Such sweet words make both you and others happy. Use this method to always sweeten everyone's mouth; constantly maintain sweet attitude, sweet words and sweet actions.

The Weak, The Brave And The Strong
Anger is weakness,
tolerance is bravery.
Humility makes you strong.

Open Mind
The mind is like a parachute - it works best when it is open. How quickly we make assumptions, jump to conclusions and close our mind. How easily we form and hold fast to our opinions and then close our mind. How fast do we make a judgement, slap on a label and then close our mind. A closed mind never knows the delight of playing with possibilities, being enlightened by others point of view or enjoying the diversity of human life. An open and understanding mind never assumes, doesn't jump to conclusions and won't hold fast to any opinion. Perhaps it is no wonder a closed mind is not a very relaxed mind.

Balance
The indication of balance in life is a sense of well-being, optimism and a clear conscience. The foundation for achieving this is to look after myself spiritually - making my mind peaceful, loving and thoughtful at all times. Then I will instinctively know how much time to spend on my own well-being and how much on fulfilling other responsibilities. I can only give my best to others when I am myself at my best.

Determined Thought
The power of determined thought gives a lot of strength. Where there is determination there is definitely success.

Spotting Goodness
When I become excessively critical towards others, it means I am going in the wrong direction. We are usually very good at spotting mistakes, but we should develop the quality of also spotting goodness. If I can see what is good in others or in situations and go beyond the curtain of negativity, I feel good about myself. If I constantly think "he is wrong", I instead create a barrier which blocks me from reaching my own goodness. A very ancient law says: "just as I treat others, I shall be treated by others.

Touching Hearts
Move through life with lightness, touching the hearts of others without leaving a mark.

Kindness
Great souls take advantage of every moment and every opportunity to give happiness to others through kindness in their thoughts; such souls are willing to overlook weaknesses and mistakes and have the desire to help everyone reach their potential.

Free Mind
A free mind is a mind that is open to everything and attached to nothing. Most people spend much of their time looking for reasons to be offended. An open mind is never offended because it is free of any attachments. It is never the self that is offended but always the illusion that the self has of itself that is affected by insult! If you can really understand this, deeply grasp it's truth, live it each day, then pain will be no more. Next time you 'feel' offended look closely within yourself at yourself and ask yourself what was offended? If you remain aware you will see that it was only an image of yourself which you had become attached to, and that image did not resonate with the image contained in the insult. If you weren't attached, if you didn't identify with the wrong image of yourself then there would be no offence taken. You would then remain free and therefore happy.

Inspirations
The soul flies, the body plods. If you identify with your body, you will feel heavy. If you think you are a soul, you will feel light.

Self-Sovereignty
Subservience to my negativity is a very precarious existence as I can never be sure how well I will handle a difficult situation. With practice it is possible to create appreciative and compassionate thoughts; then I no longer need to indulge in resentment, bitterness or dislike. Training myself to react calmly and wisely offers enormous dividends. Let me talk to myself silently with love and encouragement, balanced with firmness, and like the wise old sovereigns of fairy stories, let me rule the inner kingdom of my mind with benevolence.

Getting on with it...
Worrying about how everything will get done or whether I am capable of doing it limits my ability to respond to challenges considerably. The less I think about doing something and the faster I just get on with it, the fewer problems I cause myself. Good planning is always helpful, but time spent fretting and procrastinating is a major drain on my energy. The more willing I am to respond positively to opportunities, the more my capacity will grow.

Introversion - My Inner Landscape
The ability to enjoy one's own company is one of the greatest gifts life has to offer. Learning to turn my thoughts away from all my responsibilities at the day's end and take my mind into a state of peace and benevolence enables me to carry greater and greater loads without feeling the burden. When my inner landscape is full of beautiful thoughts, everything I do is a pleasure. Gently, I calm down chaotic situations and offer solace to troubled minds.

Members of a Great Family
Values are related to each other as if they were members of a great family . From peace and happiness emerges inner joy. From this state of wholeness love awakens and with is the desire to share and give . Two of its relatives are tolerance and respect. All values have a shared origin which unites them - the peace of spirituality. When you lose peace you begin to lose everything.

Get Deep
Deep inside our consciousness is an oasis of peace. This is the molten core of the soul, but it is not hot, it is cool. Not passive, but a source of inner power to fuel our mind and intellect, so that we can create powerful thoughts and make accurate decisions. If you can learn to go to this centre, peace will be your companion, positivity your partner, and you will be able to chill out in one second, anywhere, anytime. Returning to the centre of your self is the journey of one second. It is the regular destination of clever souls. And it is the source of your power and peace.

This Theatre of Life
Ignorance makes you believe that life functions haphazardly. Wisdom teaches you that everything that happens in this theatre of life has profound significance. What you see today is not the fruit of chance but a fruit from seeds planted in the past. Plant seeds of peace now and you will create a life of peace in the future.

Change
Knowing that all things move in cycles reminds us that what is uncomfortable now will soon change.

Manage Emotions
When the energy of our consciousness is out of our control - the mind is agitated. We are being emotional. The solution is to detach from the inner storms, stand back and observe the hurricane pass. Detached observation withdraws the energy which your emotions require to sustain themselves. When you watch your own anger, it dies. If you don't detach from it, and observe it ...it will be your master. Today is the day to practice positive, detached observation, and each emotion-filled moment is the opportunity. This is 'real' work. The work of one who is a master of their own consciousness. Are you a master or a slave?

Understanding
Most people don't understand themselves or others. we need to make time for this. We get too impatient. Very often, because we are not willing to take this time, misunderstandings continue. We don't take time to listen to someone quietly and try to understand them. Then we start inventing things about them, because we simply haven't taken the time to understand.

True love
True love means creating an environment where others can grow. In relationships, we often expect things from those we get close to. These expectations can stifle the other person and also stop us from allowing the other person to develop in a way that is right for them.

The Beauty Within
You see behind the masks and beneath the fears to the beauty within every heart.

Cripple Effect
What goes around comes around is not a new insight. It is something most of us intuitively know but easily forget, as we attempt to hold on to most things which come to us. What we don't realise is the ripple effect can easily become the cripple effect. Everything we think and do not only ripples out into the world, it also creates an impression on our own consciousness inside. If one day you decide to get really angry (very unrelaxing) at someone, then you create a memory of your irritation and carve a kind of scar or groove on your consciousness (non-physical of course). Within this scar or groove is a recording of the image of the person as you have decided to perceive them, and the energy of your anger surrounding that image. Remember, you put it there, not them. Two days later you see the same person and that triggers the image and the anger which you have already recorded within. The emotional turbulence inside your consciousness makes it very hard for you to remain positive, connect and communicate effectively, positively and harmoniously with them. In effect you are crippled and clouded by your own emotion. Most of us experience this, sometimes many times a day, but refuse to see that we cripple ourselves, preferring to blame the other person. Which is why we can stay crippled for a long time and not even realise it.

Heart of a Butterfly
"...the caterpillar has the heart of a butterfly!” It is true that if we know within our hearts what we want to become, then we will become that.

Friendship
Any worthwhile realtionship is based on friendship. True friendship is a great blessing. Friendship creates respectful space; a space of encouragement to be one's self. Friendship creates a trust that nurtures self-esteem.

Trust
When we think we can do things without other people's help, it means we have become arrogant or are unable to trust others. This lack of trust means we miss the chance to use others' potential for the benefit of the task in hand. We are deprived of a useful resource and will not achieve as much as we could by working together.

The Value of Openess
I need to keep my mind constantly open to learning in order to experience constant progress. When I have this attitude I learn from everything that happens. Then I will be able to improve in each and every task.

At Ease Every moment is precious. Let me fill myself with so much peace and stability that whoever comes in front of me at any time is at ease and uplifted.

Lost and Found
Being lost in thought, thinking about things to do, what's been done, what could have been done... is not only tiring but also a brilliant way to waste energy. It diminishes your peacefulness and clouds your clarity. Every time you become lost in thought it means exactly that - you are lost! To find yourself, allow your mind to become quiet, to become utterly tranquil. In the quiet depths of every being, there is a stillness that contains a deep inner peace and wisdom that can guide you in your life.

Send Peace
The call of time is to send thoughts of peace and power to the world. Your thoughts travel, moving at a great speed and with considerable impact. Let the thought of peace sit in your mind, knowing that the vibes from your thoughts can radiate out and touch any person, any place.

The Cause of all Conflicts
Desires cause peace to disappear. You think that acquiring things will make you feel secure, but the reality is that the more you have the more fear there usually is of losing it, and the further you are from peace. Desires are the cause of all conflicts. When you want something and cannot get it you become frustrated. Learning to be free from desires is learning how to stay peaceful.

A Day of Simplicity
Peace is simplicity. Simplicity is beauty. Choose a day as your day of simplicity. Speak little, and listen with attention. Do something incognito and nice for a person you are close to. Eat simple and natural food. Create time periods for not doing anything - just walk, look around, live the moment. Have your mind open to a more profound and silent sensitivity. Appreciate each scene and each person as they are. In the evening, write down your discoveries. Observe the state of your mind.

Free of Fear
The secret of happiness is to be free of fear. Fear is like a toxin that runs through much of our thinking. It feeds on insecurity, feeling of loss, loneliness, inadequacy and attachment. You are loveable and loving. Accept this as Truth. Appreciate and care for yourself - truly, deeply, intensely, in a way that reflects your real value. Then you will automatically have the same regards for all other living beings and things.

Help Yourself
Unfortunately these two words tend to describe the generally selfish and materialistic culture in which most of us live. They result not in self-help but in dependency. Our education and our role models do not encourage us to help ourselves to grow, change and expand our capacities as human beings. Real self-help means recognising that no one else is responsible for our thoughts and feelings, and that we are only ever victims because we choose to be. Our destiny is always and only in our own hands - despite all apparent evidence which may indicate otherwise. Learning to help ourselves is also a prerequisite to extending a hand of assistance to others. We all need a leg up from time to time, but once there, we are always on our own.

Think BIG
Rise above little things. Be a big thinker. You are what you think. So just think big, believe big, act big, dream big, work big, give big, forgive big, laugh big, image big, love big, live big. Carry that list and you'll start feeling big. Be a believer and you'll be an achiever.

Take Time To Laugh Take time to laugh, it is the music of the soul. Take time to think, it is the source of power. Take time to read, it is the fountain of wisdom. Take time to love and be loved, it is a God-given privilege. Take time to work, it is the price of success.

Fire of Anger
Imbibe the virtues of humility and patience and the fire of anger will become cool.

Thoughts, Words and Deeds
Kindness in words creates confidence. Kindness in thinking creates profoundness. Kindness in giving creates love.

Non-Violence
Non-violence is a very deep philosphy. Not only does it require me to harm no one physically, but also to avoid harming anyone's self respect. Such an ethic requires tremendous awareness and sensitivity. When I have learned to be gentle with myself, I can be the same with others.

Seeds Planted in the Past
Ignorance makes you believe that life functions haphazardly. Wisdom teaches you that everything that happens in this theatre of life has profound significance. What you see today is not the fruit of chance but a fruit from seeds planted in the past. Plant seeds of peace now and you will create a life of peace in the future.

A Trickle in the Darkness
Contentment is like an underground river whose course just cannot be daunted. On the surface, people are stamping, pushing, pulling; the ground is cracking or left derelict but underneath the river is flowing, even if at some point it is only a trickle in the darkness.

Freedom
The true hero not only frees the self but has the capacity to free others from their dragons. Ultimately it is a state of being not action. Freedom can be called the state of purity, in which intentions and actions have become naturally benevolent.

Pratice Stopping
When you learn you drive, you have to practice stopping. In the same way, practice putting a stop to waste thoughts and you will be constantly happy.

Am I Happy?
If there is any sadness I make a strong effort to be free of it quickly, otherwise it grows like a vine in the rainy season: by midday I will be confused; by evening a whole jungle of weak, wasteful and negative attitudes will have taken deep roots in my mind. The result equals chaos. Sometimes I reach a stage where the attitude is: "So what if I feel the blues today? It is my life; no one else will be affected". Firstly, the more I allow myself to experience sorrow, the less time I have available to be happy and contented. It sounds ridiculously obvious, but am I aware of the value of happiness? It is an extremely rare commodity, and the cost goes sky high. Secondly, is it my life? Yes, I am living it, but am I not a member of a family or a co-worker with others, and am I not part of society? If so, then every movement affects and is affected by those around me.

Compassionate Soul
A compassionate soul will travel great distances and scale high walls in order to understand another point of view.

The Secret to Being Content
To be peaceful is to be free from expectations and to want nothing from anyone. Take the initiative and be generous. Lead the way and do something. This is the secret to being content in all circumstances.

Determination
Determination is an unbroken line, a backbone. Without determination life becomes scattered. Determination makes you sit up straight and love everything.

Self-Confidence
Self-confidence is to know your way around yourself so instinctively that you always have a strength to draw on. Somewhere inside, from the stillness, you always find something that can meet your need. Self-confidence runs much deeper than nerves.

Speech Economy
To be economical with words gets things done more easily. When we say too much, people switch off and stop listening. When I think carefully about what I need to communicate, I can do it with fewer words. Other people then become more willing to listen.