A Letter to Him..

Hi dad,

How are u there? Hope that u r sitting beside God and Jesus watching us from the heaven. Not like what grandma say keep seeing u around the house.

I think it's been a long long time I never sit down to have a talk with u. I think since u were sick. I never think of wanna write this letter to u. But this few days i suddenly have the urge to write this and talk with u. Last week was ur day. I had went to ur rest place to visit u. It's been 3 years already. Still miss the day u r around.

I had been thinking many things since then. I always asked myself last time when I went to KL to further my studies was I really wanna runaway from u and the problems in our family. We always have fights among each other. Quarrels when we were angry. There was seldom have peace in the family. So I decide to went to KL to study. Running away from all the madness. I think I never tell all of you the reason.

Actually, I was angry with u and God during those days. I always ask God why u have this sickness. Because u were sick I had never go out with family, taking photoes with family and so on. Mum became the man of the family. She had to carried all the burden of the family and take care of the family and u. But, u always dunnno hoe to thanks her. Always make her angry. U r suppose to protect the family and mum. But, now mum becomes the protector.

As for God, I felt like He never listen to my prays since u were sick. He always says He will rescue and helps those who pray to Him. But then He never do so. He didn't cure u and let u be healthier. He always made u in pain.

Now, I had change my minds about u and God. From ur sickness, I think I have learnt a lot. We all have grown up and more mature. We had become more independent. Try our best in our studies. I think u r proud with us. A bi has further studies to Canada. Study at his favourire university and subject. As for a sze, she has improve herself in her studies. Be more mature in her life. As for pei lin, I think she has become more mature. But we all still worry about her. Always remind her to be careful. Haha..

Dad, actually I got a question to ask u. Are u really still around us? Grandma always says she always see u around. Driving her around, eating and talking with her. I always wonder the reason why u don't appear in front of us or in dreams. Talk with us. Haha..

Ok la.. Wanna stop writing here. Hope u r happy and healthy everyday. Bye..

Thought For Days

Friendship
Anyone with a heart full of friendship has a hard time finding enemies.

Making a Life
We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give.

In Silence and Stillness
In the silence of my being, in the stillness of peace, I ponder the greatness of my existence, and the truly endless love and power I have within me.

Dance In Happiness
The easy way to remain happy is to remain constantly light. Pure thoughts are light and waste thoughts are heavy. Therefore, keep your intellect busy with pure thoughts and you will become light and continue to dance in happiness.

Contentment
Remain content by recognizing the benefit of every moment - and the beauty of every soul.

Imperishable Wealth
The wealth of a rich man can be stolen or burnt, but the happiness and wisdom of the wise remain.

Fragrant Heart
The heart is like a flower - unless it is open it cannot release its fragrance into the world.

Diamond Consciousness
When you look at the world through your physical eyes, you will see all the facets of our diversity: culture, race, personality, religion and so on. Seeing only through your physical eyes, it is easy to become stubborn and to try to prove yourself right. However where there is stubbornness there is no love. And trying to prove the self right is equally offensive. A diamond will sparkle even in the dust; you do not ever need to prove that you are right. In the face of the dangers that come from seeing only with the physical eyes, always think: now is the time to go beyond all divisions, beyond all that limits us and our sense of self. Whatever the race, the religion, the class - our consciousness now has to go beyond all of that.

Learn a Lesson
Instead of being afraid of situations, consider them to be your teacher and learn a lesson from them.

2nd or 3rd Day???

Today is the 3rd day my brother left Malaysia to study at Canada. But, for him, it was his second day. There is a 12-hour differencefrom Malaysia. Now, it was 5 am at his place. I had talked with him through skype at nood for 2 days. It's the first time to talk to him using webcam.

Without him by my side or at home is quite difficult to adjust. No one to play with and disturb with. But, I also need to get use to it from now on. Now, I am just looking forward for his changes after going there. Maybe will become fatter than before or just slimmer because of the stress. Still thinking about it. Haha.. Now I just hope that my little brother will be more independent and wise spending. Take care also..

Still got 4 days. 3rd of September.. A memorable day for my family. It is the 3rd year my dad past away. I was surprised when I looked at the calendar. It has been almost 3 years. So fast.. Miss the day with him around when thinking it back. This will be the first time I will be passing throught this day with my family. Last 2 years I had been studying outstation. Memories...

Today is Thursday..

Today is Thursday. This may be not a special day all the people. But, for me. it's a day when my brother go to Canada for his studies. It's a hard time for me since he had been staying with me for most of my life except when I went to KL for my studies. I have been used to his arounds since he came back for holidays before going to Canada.

His flight will be take off soon. It will be a long trip for him since he needs to take the transit from Dubai before reaching Toronto. Now sitting in front of the pc writing this blog make me think back many things. Memory flashed back. I'm gonna miss him since he is my little brother.

Four years studying abroad and maybe will come back during holidays. So, now I need to be more active in reading my brother's blog.

Message to my little brother:

So, a bi.. Finally you are going out for your dream. Take care when you are there. Don't forget to update ur blog and facebook. Always email us and take care. Plus oil in your studies too. Do really take care.. Good luck..

Thought For Days

Useful Things
Remember only useful things and there will be no need to even think about forgetting anything painful.

Good Relationships
In order to create good relationships... - with your mind, think about what you have to learn from others, - with your eyes, look into good qualities of others, - with your words, recognise, value and appreciate their accomplishments, - with your actions, cooperate and do something for others.

Detachment
Detachment is being close to what you most want to be free from and using it to make you grow.

Appreciation of Every Soul
See through God's eyes and feel through God's heart and you will appreciate the value of every soul including yourself.

Failure
Failure doesn't mean - you'll never make it, it means - it will take a little longer.

Meditation
At the core of your being, you are deeply peaceful, immensley loving, infinitely wise and profoundly contented.

A Long And Healthy Life
There are three ingredients for a long and healthy life: live with attention but without worry, use time in a worthwhile way, keep your thoughts pure, positive and filled with strength.

Obstacles
It is good that obstacles come, but the obstacles should not defeat you. Obstacles come to make you strong. Therefore instead of being afraid of obstacles, overcome them by considering them to an entertaining game. When you have the company of God there is no need to be afraid.

Change
It is wise to bend rather than to break. Those who change will get spiritual wisdom. Conversely, those who have wisdom will decide to change. Change is the first law of Nature.

Lotus Life
The lotus is a symbol of purity. Its roots are in the mud, but the flower remains above dirty water. Live a lotus life. Be in the world, but unaffected by impurities.

Talk Lovingly to Yourself
Learning to talk properly to the self is a spiritual endeavour. When you make a mistake, do you talk lovingly to yourself in your mind, or do you tell yourself off? One habit recognises your divinity; the other subtly shapes a nature of sorrow.

Riches
The greatest good we can do for others is not to share our riches with them, but to reveal to them their own.

Truly and Permanently Happy
The secret to life's purpose is to be happy. In order to be truly and permanently happy, we have to fulfil our best intentions and act on them right away ... even if that means we start by just giving good thoughts to them.

My Thoughts..

Last night, I finally got chance to watch Hannah Montana The Movie. It's about a girl who has 2 identities. One as a girl from a small town and one as famous singer. The movie is about her 2 weeks life in Tennessee which is her hometown. I like one of the songs in this movie. 'The Climb'.. That was sang by her after her secret was known by the others.

After hearing the song, it sort of link to my life. I have many dreams in my life. When I almost reach for my dreams, there were always some problems ahead them. I lost my directions and start losing my faith on what I believe, sometimes.

The following is the lyrics of the song..

The Climb sang by Miley Cyrus..

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
The pain I'm knowing
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Losing directions and faith when I faced problems. But I can't give it up. Just like the song say:

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

I like this. Life is like a climb. We need to climb 'mountains' before reaching for the dreams we have. This song encourage me a lot. Hope this song will encourage you too.

See the video clip from youtube. The link is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tMjj1sBQ6PQ.

Long Time..

It's been a while i didn't update my blog. It has been almost 5 months I rush for my office peak period. Finally all my assignments during July and kept helping my seniors prepare the draft account, vouching and prepare the final account. But, filling in form c & r was the job I did the most.

Now is August. My manager has given us the new assignments. From August till March 2010. The assignments I have are 14 altogether. Assignments in December are the most. Now have to start calling the clients for the documents and accounts to come in. It will be a busy days again.

Haze in Miri is really a big matter. The weather here is hot and dry everyday. But, now the wind blow strongly. So, i think it may be raining tonight. Just hope that it will clear the haze away from bring back the bright sky.

Busy with my works is what can I say on my working lifestyle. Now I every night stay at home to regain the energy. Lazy to go out and seldom on msn and chat with others. Hope that all my friends are well and in good health. Take care everyone..